2013 wasn’t so bad, it was a year of exploring, knowing, understanding, valuing and loving myself more. I knew one year was never enough to enjoy what life has to offer but I guess I’ve moved on maturely and fast enough to not linger on goodbyes and heartbreaks.
When 2014 came, all I had in mind was to live and love my life even more but little did I know, that 2014 will become my year. Although it was not a smooth sailing year, there were a few bump on the road, heartbreaks, crazy moments but to sum it up, 2014 was entirely filled with pure adventure and love. So how did my 2014 turn into? Here’s a recap of how blissful my year was, there were tough lessons that needed to be learned, new discoveries in life and of course life’s gentle reminder to live my life to the fullest.
JANUARY – My year started with a big bang but the harsh truth of being single slapped me a couple of times when we had our family trip in Palawan. Although I had to endure three days of being left alone amidst the comfort of my family yet at every end of the day, I always remind myself that I do not need someone to complete me, I still have the love and support of my family and friends. On top of that, I still value my freedom and I haven’t found the perfect person who would respect my independence. But of course, as crazy as I am, I had some epic and crazy episodes of consuming alcohol beyond my limit which led me to lose a couple of my eyelids nevertheless I’ve realized so many things and finally understood the complex definition of loving yourself first above anything else.
FEBRUARY – What a bittersweet month, this happened to be my second valentines being single and celebrating it with my dear blessed friends. But this year’s valentines was a bit special, I was overjoyed with love and attention from everyone who expressed their love and affection for me. I’ve fully understood my purpose and journey, of course a big tap on my shoulder because I have never held on to the pain anymore, I’ve matured enough to accept and let go of all heartbreaks in life. I have valued to love myself more and when everything fell into place, I was able attract the right people into my life. As the song goes “I didn’t know I was looking for love, until I found you…” So I guess when you are not looking for it, love comes knocking directly at your door.
MARCH – Oh this month, my stress level went up. This month was such a wreck, a roller coaster ride, all the crazy turns, bumpy twirls and flash twists that you can imagine were endured during this month. I had to close down all my social media accounts and kept it private for a while. To cut the story short, I was bombarded with a lot of negative outbursts which led me to keep my silence for a while. I kept my cool and decided to ignore it, I was the one, mature enough to ignore all the racy comments and I have humbled myself to understand everything. I was even nice enough to entertain calls even though I have every right to ignore it, I had my hopes up that everything will turn the right way but I guess, I expected a lot. I was wrong in believing that there is still good left in humanity. But then, I’ve survived the month with less cuts and burn.
APRIL – Sometimes, when life gives you all the crazy hardships, it will turn the table around, in the end it will give you the life you deserve. Even though I had to endure another long and crazy bump, but I was lucky enough that I have the saving grace of my friends. We had to go through another internet squabble but thank heavens my friends had my back. It was a long and winding journey, luckily my friends are not the type who judge a person easily, they kept their views open and respected each and everyone’s opinion because at the end of the day we were the ones who can sleep soundly at night. April was not a flawless month but it ended perfectly. It was a blissful summer with the boyf, we’ve traveled all around Cebu and discovered more about each other, I guess when you deserve a good life, it will generally be handed down to you.
MAY – Being in a Long Distance Relationship was one of the greatest challenge I had to face this year. I was never the LDR type of girl but I never thought that my current relationship will last this long. With a leap of faith and a strong desire to work things out, we’ve endured another month of being apart, good thing the boyf had some extra days back in Cebu and we made memories all over again.
JUNE – Another crazy school term. Surviving my first year in Law School made me realize that I am still capable of doing what I am good at. But this time it’s a bit different, I had to juggle my time with my family, friends, law school, my personal life and love. It was a rough start, but I guess I’ve battled a lot of wars not to survive this one. Aside from the school year starting, I had the best consolation before the school started, I traveled to Singapore and spent my weekend in Negros. I choose to live my life to the fullest without getting affected by negativity. I’ve continued to live my life in peace and happiness.
JULY – The birth month of my two favorite person. It was indeed special because it was the first time we had to celebrate his birthday together. But the highlights of this month was our special trip. It was during this trip which strengthen our bond together, there were a lot of secrets that we’ve shared and of course, moments which tested our relationship. This was the time we’ve realized that we both are a beautiful mess and together we create such beautiful memories to balance all the disasters we had in our pasts.
AUGUST – One of the most reckless month of all, midterms was taking a lot of my time, another bump came to place but good thing we were able to surpass it like an easy A. We’ve been tested through time but our love had stood still amidst everything. We were aware that we both had our crazy and complicated pasts but it didn’t stop us from accepting our flaws and acknowledging our mistakes. We always compliment each others weaknesses and imperfections, that’s why we come out stronger as ever.
SEPTEMBER – Everything went by in a flash, this was the month which highlighted and sealed the deal. Finally after 6 long months he met my mother, which is definitely a deal breaker. The meet up was a success and I was happy as a joyful bee.
OCTOBER – I always look forward every month for a new adventure and I guess I’ve been spoiled enough that I always get what I want. However I was given the hardest test of all time, it tested how strong I am as a person, good thing my friends and the partner was supportive enough to understand my break down. I had to be strong not only for myself but for the entire family, I’ve realized that being the eldest in the family, you are obliged to feel the burden and the greater weight is in your hands. But with great faith, I was able to endure the heavy burden and lifted it all to our higher God. At the day’s end I’ve stood tall and proud, stronger than ever with God’s grace and the love of my family, friends and the partner. I came out as a survivor.
NOVEMBER – Giving back what I received this year, I couldn’t put into words how blessed I am. I was so excited to turn 29, of course my birthday was one of the greatest highlights of this month but the best thing that ever happened was sharing what I have.
DECEMBER – Loneliest holiday, my mom and I had to celebrate the holidays without my two brothers and my dad. Even though it was not the usual loud and happy holiday, we managed to celebrate it with our dear friends. I was even given a chance to celebrate Christmas with the boyf. For me, it was indeed a merry merry christmas minus the happy and crazy holiday cheers from the entire family.
I guess it was not a short recap but I am happy that I’ve shorten some months, so that I wouldn’t suck the life out of you because of boredom hahahaha! Again, I am super thankful for all the wonderful things that happened to me this year, despite all the trials and tribulation I am happy that all these bump in the road made me what I am today. I am still thankful to those who have hurt me, without you I could have not appreciated what I have. Above all I am wishing everyone a joyous new year. I hope that the coming year everyone will find the peace and everlasting love just like I did. And of course, I am hoping that 2015 will be another great year not only for me but for everyone else. Spreading my happy hormones to each of my followers, family and friends. Happy New Year again!