I’ve spent 365 single days wondering what my life will be a year from now? It is inevitable to think that one day I might end up being alone, even if I have my family and friends to support and love me; but nothing beats the love of that one special person. That person who shares the same heartbeat as yours.
I am a hopeless romantic, I always find joy in knowing that someone is holding that special piece of my heart. And that person is the one holding the other piece of that red string. I have lived in pain for too long so I decided to let things go. It was refreshing; it was blissful.
My life is not perfect, sometimes I end up crying at night, missing the days were I don’t have to worry about anything. But I always stop in the middle of the night, waking up to reality that my life is not a fairy tale. It is a journey of truth, pain, happiness and love.
And so when the time came when someone knocked on your door, it was so hard to open that door and let that person come in your life. There’s that fear of getting hurt and being bitter again, but at the back of your head, you are thinking that maybe, maybe you can give this one a try. You may not have it all at once, but it might be worth a shot.
Then you start opening your heart and letting your guards down but you still fear that one day you might end up on that pedestal, helpless and wounded. Inevitably you think, what the hell! Life is messy, life is not perfect, it is not a fairy tale at all. We have to endure these pain to learn, to test ourselves and to grow. Life itself is not a perfect picture of a princess living happily ever after.
It takes a great amount of courage to LOVE again, it took me a leap of faith to TRUST again. I know that this is not going to be an easy journey, but I see the joy in the midst of love. I see myself feeling the warmth of the sun again, appreciating the beauty of life and believing in LOVE since I found you. I guess my life isn’t meant to be lonely after all. I guess the world has conspired me to find that one person who can make my heart beat once again.
So for now, I am thankful for that one person who found me amidst the collection of many faces online. Thank you for believing in me that I shall find love one more time, thank you for teaching me to seek and embrace love for the second time around. Thank you for telling me that I am not alone. Thank you for coming into my life and being part of this new journey. And above all, thank you for loving, appreciating and accepting me.
You are my serendipity, I wasn’t looking for you, I wasn’t expecting you.
But I am very lucky I met you.
Blog update about my recent trip and daily updates will be uploaded soon. I just can’t help typing this explosion of emotions in my heart.
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